A Week's Review

Hey guys, Cdog here. It has been quite the week for me personally. While I released only one video, "A Matter of Confessions", personally it was dramatic. You are already well aware of what I did Wednesday the 26th, which by now seemed like forever. But the reason I am still talking about it now is the lasting effect of it. If you watched and stuck around Friday's video I uploaded then you would have seen me talking about it at the end. Well not "see" me, hear me more like it. If you didn't stay around or end up watching it or even read the piece, essentially I expressed my original fear in doing so. Now I can be reluctant in actions and a bit shy as well because I don't want to mess anything up. That corresponds to create a fear of failure for me. So obviously whenever it came to the time to admit this to her, I was scared. That was a bold move that I have done and I probably wouldn't have been able to do it months back whenever I first realized my apparent interest in her. Now some of the things I said weren't things I stated at the end of the video, but perhaps I'll address it vocally on an update video. Speaking of those, I haven't really got around to any of them. It was precisely two months ago today whenever I last released one. This blog is pretty much the best place for updates. Other than that, I kind of wanted to reinforce what I did over the past week. I hope you go and see the video I uploaded Friday to know for sure what has been going on. Expect some more videos this week though. Until then, goodbye.

~Cdog

New Writing (A Matter of Confessions)

Hey guys, Cdog here. I present to you another writing that has just been added to the writings page. This one is special however; more special than the others. This is the very writing I gave to my love interest, Maura, just this morning the 26th of March. It was the most triumphant moment in my life considering I finally stepped out of my comfort zone to reach out to someone I like and that I was confidence enough to do it. Read it if you want and enjoy it. Remember the use of "you" is directed towards Maura, not you. I'll probably make a video on it as well, but until then, goodbye.

~Cdog

A Matter of Confessions

Hey guys Cdog here. It seems that all I posted here in March are updates, and this one must add to that category. I do feel bad that I don't get much time anymore, but the high school life is a lot of work. I still have a plethora of recorded videos, but I never get around to uploading them. I'm still procrastinating with recording another one of my writings. I feel very guilty for that because I really want to do it. I still feel uncomfortable by the whole thing I guess. Other than that, I have been doing some personal stuff. That girl in the "Pain Inside" and one I talk about often, I have been writing her something confessing all the secrets I have kept hidden within myself for almost five months. In fact, this Wednesday the 26th of March marks the 5 month anniversary of the Towson competition in which I first realized my feelings for this girl. Now after those 5 months, she is going to learn. Not only that, but learn a bit about me. Unlike the readers of this blog, she knows nothing of this side of personal, wistful, and soft side of me. She knows me as a serious person, but none of those redeeming qualities you readers know about. Let me tell you, bottling up emotions for a human being for 5 months is painful. Everyday I felt the pain. Now since I wrote it, part of it cleared away. I believe it will all clear away once I give it to her and she comes back to me with it. The truth is, I haven't talked to her in months. My fear of screwing it up costs me many of an opportunity. Perhaps I'll write more in depth on my fears one day, but my fear of failure is deeper than you could imagine. It is the root to many problems that I face in daily life. Once the piece is done, I'll even share it to you guys. I want to make her feel special, but at the same time make everyone feel special. I may not be much, I only have 81 subscribers. However one of these days I will lead the movement to create peace and posterity in this world, and also make everyone feel important in their lifetimes. Until then, goodbye.

~Cdog

What is Going On

Hey guys, Cdog here. I finally got around to making and uploading videos last week, and perhaps later on this week I can have that same time. The thing is I've still been busy with school and all, and just now I did an English project for 5 and a half hours. So yeah, I'm busy. I also realized how inactive I have been this month so far, which I apologize for. I'll try to keep up with this blog more often, perhaps share some more personal stuff. Other than that, just expect more videos and blog posts in the future. Until then, goodbye.

~Cdog

Some Updates

Hey guys, Cdog here. I haven't been on the ball with this blog recently only because the amount of school work I have been getting. I did say last year that high school would prevent me from being active most of the time and thus far I have been 95.37% correct (yes, it is a very precise number). However, I still will make at least one this week if I find the time. I really want to return to the recorded writings; I have some excellent ones I wrote coming in store. I hope to be doing Tekkit on my server at some point with friends, but that is certainly quite some cash (about 50 US dollars a month) to add an extra gigabyte (for a total of 2). Quite expensive, but it is the drawback to having an excellent server provider. Anyway, I just wanted to keep you alerted. I hope to find that time for at least one video this week, but no promises. Until then, goodbye.

~Cdog

More Updates

Hey guys Cdog here. I haven't been very on the ball with the blog or my channel as well, so I wanted to give some quick updates. I have been rather busy with school, having working all day Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday before finally returning to the computer yesterday, Friday February 28, for the first time since last Monday. I do apologize for that, but school comes first obviously. So anyway, videos coming but I'm no longer going to estimate when. For some reason, I don't usually follow along promises very well, so as a result I don't typically work well on a schedule. With that said, expect videos at some point in the week, no specific time, but at least some will be here this week. Those videos will include some of the minigames I recorded last Saturday along with some of the writing videos since I'm literally dying to get this out (well not literally dying, but you know what I mean). Until then, goodbye.

~Cdog