Hey guys, Cdog here, and I know I haven't been posting on this blog as much as I should of, but I'll try more often. Now with the start of September comes a monthly recap for August. I posted after July I really wanted to extend upon July's 814 view record into August, and little did I know I'd crush it. As of August 30, (that analytics only go that far so far, so I'll add an edit later on with the total view count) the month of August has accumulated 1,504 views! That is very impressive, and it pretty much is because of the Five Night's at Freddy's video I did. Who knew people would like to watch me scream so much. I am trying to get more Freddy's out there, but my facecam keeps crashing my video editor, otherwise the videos would be out by now.
Getting away from views, the month of August didn't garner enough minutes watched as much as July 2013, the record holder, did. August accumulated an estimated amount of 1 day and 15 hours worth of minutes, but that's 4 hours shy of July's record. However I still find this to be pretty dang good, and also considering this only trails said July. So thank you all for supporting my videos and watching them in August, even when I was busy with band and also starting up sophomore year of high school. In September I'll be equally as busy, especially with every Saturday I'll have a competition pretty much on that day, and Fridays I have football games to forcibly attend because the band has to go, so about the only TRUE day off I have is Sunday. I don't have another day off from school until Thanksgiving after Labor Day today as well (on the weekday that is).
So with all that said, thank you again for a successful August, and I look forward to September, where I plan on doing Attack of the B Team (it's not gonna be 1 episode alright, I had to rebuild my stuff and also I didn't have time especially while making the montage video). Freddy's I'll still try to get my videos out there I did, and also I have my birthday coming up in 2 weeks on September 15, so expect a little something then. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Sep 1, 2014
Aug 15, 2014
Attack of the B Team Coming Soon and Thanks
Hey guys, Cdog here, and boy I need to post more often. However I've been busy with band and etc, but I've been able to get a few vids out there this month luckily. Which speaking of that, I want to say thank you for the huge view boost I'm getting for my Freddy's video. I knew the reaction was funny, but jeez I wasn't anticipating so many views so quickly! With that video, we can easily smash my goal of getting more views than July. July last month set the new monthly views record at 814, and this month already has around 720 views, and we're just about half done! So thanks once again, and I plan on doing more Freddy's because of the first video's popularity.
Now with that said comes the main point, Attack of the B Team. Mcfarlin finally got his server up and running about last week, so for about 5 days or so I've been constructing my home for the series, which is a big castle. I figured I'd go all out, and I'm building in survival, so it WILL take awhile. Regardless, however, I may still start the series while building it as it will take too long to finish. I currently got a headstart on Tinkers' Construct, but I don't want to keep it since I want to save it for the series. I was just using it to help me get materials to build with. With that, at times I will record by myself, but most of the time I'll be with mcfarlin in the video. The first video however will most likely be just me as I get a temporary workshop running in which I can start all my stuff there. One of my first goals is not only Tinkers' Construct, but also getting an auto-spawner, which means Imma gonna find a village and do something (which you can't find out yet). I'll also be messing with Witchery, Necromancy, Galacticraft, Project Red, Thermal Expansion, and all that jazz. I'm inspired by bebopvox's Modded Madness series as well as ridgedog's Yogscast Complete series, so I'm gonna run my series in a similar matter to the way they do it. In Modded Madness, they usually focus on a mod at a time, but most likely I won't do that, but I am inspired of how they work together in the series. With mcfarlin and I, I want to work like that, as in we both do something to complete an objective together to improve both of us. As for ridgedog's series, it will mainly play out whenever I'm recording alone, which will mean I probably won't show too many of the boring stuff and show what I did and the progress I'm making throughout the episode. Now if I'm exploring or whatever or something funny pops out and etc, then there will be exceptions. It'll work out later on as the series progresses, but keep in mind I'm not starting from square one as I already have some basic tools built so you don't have to see me start it ALL out.
So that is about it for this post. I plan on starting the series at least before school comes, which starts Tuesday for me. Keep in mind, I'll try to do this as often as possible as the first week of school usually isn't busy, but later on as we get more work, school WILL be my main focus. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Now with that said comes the main point, Attack of the B Team. Mcfarlin finally got his server up and running about last week, so for about 5 days or so I've been constructing my home for the series, which is a big castle. I figured I'd go all out, and I'm building in survival, so it WILL take awhile. Regardless, however, I may still start the series while building it as it will take too long to finish. I currently got a headstart on Tinkers' Construct, but I don't want to keep it since I want to save it for the series. I was just using it to help me get materials to build with. With that, at times I will record by myself, but most of the time I'll be with mcfarlin in the video. The first video however will most likely be just me as I get a temporary workshop running in which I can start all my stuff there. One of my first goals is not only Tinkers' Construct, but also getting an auto-spawner, which means Imma gonna find a village and do something (which you can't find out yet). I'll also be messing with Witchery, Necromancy, Galacticraft, Project Red, Thermal Expansion, and all that jazz. I'm inspired by bebopvox's Modded Madness series as well as ridgedog's Yogscast Complete series, so I'm gonna run my series in a similar matter to the way they do it. In Modded Madness, they usually focus on a mod at a time, but most likely I won't do that, but I am inspired of how they work together in the series. With mcfarlin and I, I want to work like that, as in we both do something to complete an objective together to improve both of us. As for ridgedog's series, it will mainly play out whenever I'm recording alone, which will mean I probably won't show too many of the boring stuff and show what I did and the progress I'm making throughout the episode. Now if I'm exploring or whatever or something funny pops out and etc, then there will be exceptions. It'll work out later on as the series progresses, but keep in mind I'm not starting from square one as I already have some basic tools built so you don't have to see me start it ALL out.
So that is about it for this post. I plan on starting the series at least before school comes, which starts Tuesday for me. Keep in mind, I'll try to do this as often as possible as the first week of school usually isn't busy, but later on as we get more work, school WILL be my main focus. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Jul 30, 2014
Upcoming Plans
Hey guys, Cdog here, and I can assure you I'm alright. Now its been almost a month since I posted on this blog, which I apologize, and also for not uploading anything for a few weeks. Now there is an explanation that is rather simple for that: I was on vacation last week, had no time for making videos before hand, and band camp currently going from 12 to 8 PM EST this week (yes I practice for 8 hours, insane isn't it?). But now I am trying to break out of that with some new stuff I hope to be doing soon.
So currently my plans reside on Modded Minecraft, which I hope to be doing Attack of the B team with mcfarlin eventually as he got a server for it. Now we were both playing on it and making videos a couple days before my vacation, but we agreed to discard it as he reset the world due to its glitchy nature. Recently though, he decided to change it to vanilla Minecraft to make it into a public server, which BTW you can check it with the IP theshire.beastmc.com. So he probably is in the works to create another server for mod packs, as I don't have the money nor will have it for awhile since my father is unemployed at the moment and he typically gives me a bit of money for mainly cutting my lawn. I HOPE to be doing Attack of the B Team soon though as it is a rather fun mod pack.
Now for other stuff. It has been forever since I've done any writing videos, but I plan on doing it more often. However I've been going through a lot of work lately and I haven't felt inspired or anything to write in a long time, which is rather unfortunate as I used to write all the time earlier this year. I did write one recently however I plan on improving talking about an experience of extreme social anxiety I once experienced in band that lead to a bit of depression for the day. It was not a great experience for me, as I was beginning to lose hope in my social abilities I guess you can call it. It's just that recently I've been struggling to think what is true about myself, and what I believe to be true to myself, like the whole social anxiety thing. I believe I have it, but I really don't know, and I don't know whether or not I WANT to believe I have it or not. It's complicated I know, and I'm glad this is the first time I'm writing it down. But the writings I don't want to rush to make a certain deadline, so I will upload them whenever they are ready, and I'll TRY to make them more often. You can't rush writings however, as they will lose its quality.
This next thing is a HUGE maybe, as in I MIGHT be playing a horror game tomorrow actually. I found this unique horror game on Steam called Pineview Drive being released tomorrow, July 31, and it looks rather interesting thus far to me. I won't talk much about it, but depending on the money factor if it costs money, which I assume so, will decide whether or not I play it. I will also use facecam on my tablet to add to the video if I play it, which I hope I can.
So that's it for all the upcoming stuff. To give you guys heads up, band camp continues the rest of this week up to Friday at 8 EST, but I also have a 2nd week of it beginning Monday at 8 am EST to 4 pm EST. That means I will have more time to do stuff on the computer, but on weekends I'm free. I start sophomore year about August 19, so from then on I can record ONLY on days I'm not busy with school or band; my education comes before YouTube obviously. Also, I am within 5 subs of 100 subs finally, so once that happens I plan on doing a special montage, which I won't reveal at this time. My 2 year anniversary of my first video is also on August 30, as for my 5 year anniversary of this account on August 16, but it's not that important. I will have a special message that day to, because despite the fact I'm not very popular, making YouTube videos has changed me in some ways and lead to new experiences and friends as well, including people like mcfarlin. Okay enough rumbling just expect all this at some point. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
So currently my plans reside on Modded Minecraft, which I hope to be doing Attack of the B team with mcfarlin eventually as he got a server for it. Now we were both playing on it and making videos a couple days before my vacation, but we agreed to discard it as he reset the world due to its glitchy nature. Recently though, he decided to change it to vanilla Minecraft to make it into a public server, which BTW you can check it with the IP theshire.beastmc.com. So he probably is in the works to create another server for mod packs, as I don't have the money nor will have it for awhile since my father is unemployed at the moment and he typically gives me a bit of money for mainly cutting my lawn. I HOPE to be doing Attack of the B Team soon though as it is a rather fun mod pack.
Now for other stuff. It has been forever since I've done any writing videos, but I plan on doing it more often. However I've been going through a lot of work lately and I haven't felt inspired or anything to write in a long time, which is rather unfortunate as I used to write all the time earlier this year. I did write one recently however I plan on improving talking about an experience of extreme social anxiety I once experienced in band that lead to a bit of depression for the day. It was not a great experience for me, as I was beginning to lose hope in my social abilities I guess you can call it. It's just that recently I've been struggling to think what is true about myself, and what I believe to be true to myself, like the whole social anxiety thing. I believe I have it, but I really don't know, and I don't know whether or not I WANT to believe I have it or not. It's complicated I know, and I'm glad this is the first time I'm writing it down. But the writings I don't want to rush to make a certain deadline, so I will upload them whenever they are ready, and I'll TRY to make them more often. You can't rush writings however, as they will lose its quality.
This next thing is a HUGE maybe, as in I MIGHT be playing a horror game tomorrow actually. I found this unique horror game on Steam called Pineview Drive being released tomorrow, July 31, and it looks rather interesting thus far to me. I won't talk much about it, but depending on the money factor if it costs money, which I assume so, will decide whether or not I play it. I will also use facecam on my tablet to add to the video if I play it, which I hope I can.
So that's it for all the upcoming stuff. To give you guys heads up, band camp continues the rest of this week up to Friday at 8 EST, but I also have a 2nd week of it beginning Monday at 8 am EST to 4 pm EST. That means I will have more time to do stuff on the computer, but on weekends I'm free. I start sophomore year about August 19, so from then on I can record ONLY on days I'm not busy with school or band; my education comes before YouTube obviously. Also, I am within 5 subs of 100 subs finally, so once that happens I plan on doing a special montage, which I won't reveal at this time. My 2 year anniversary of my first video is also on August 30, as for my 5 year anniversary of this account on August 16, but it's not that important. I will have a special message that day to, because despite the fact I'm not very popular, making YouTube videos has changed me in some ways and lead to new experiences and friends as well, including people like mcfarlin. Okay enough rumbling just expect all this at some point. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Jul 2, 2014
A Recap of June
Hey guys, Cdog here bringing you a quick recap for the month of June 2014, which just ended a couple days ago. Now June was by the far best month statistically for the year 2014 thus far, as it complied for a total view count of 539, in which the previous most watched month this year was 471 monthly views in March. Compared to last year, that view count is crap though, as last summer saw each month cap over 700 views. I'm at least happy the number raised after a significant drop in stats for the months of April and May. Of course I was able to post more often in June, but since it's now July, band camp later on this month will take up all my time, so just warning in advance.
As for subscribers, June was also pretty good. The month of June had 7 new people subscribe to the channel, but that seems horrible, but honestly to me that's a big boost considering March held the previous record this year with 4. I hope this is the start of something year, as I will aim to top the subscriber count each month. It probably won't happen, but if I can be proven wrong, that'll be great, but I'm still giving it my all. I could of got more for June, but according to YouTube some accounts subbed to me were suspended on June 16 which dropped my sub count a bit. As for 2014, I've gained 27 subs, but lost 17 of them either due to those suspended accounts or legit nor pleasing anybody. I'll go with option 2 unfortunately, but on the bright side I actually have an acceptable video editor called Camtasia. This one actually gives me more options for video cropping, so the most recent video is finally in full screen! Yay!
June 26 also has seen the highest view count of the month with 40 views that day. My view count has been steadily rising up since mid June and hasn't seen less than 10 views a day since June 13, and it is staying at a medium of 40 or 30 views daily. Now over time I hope it improves, but obviously I like seeing this rise in June since 2014 has been rather slow for my channel up until now. Now it is starting to rise, so I hope it continues to rise for July.
Here is a photo of daily views for June 2014 compared to June 2013.
Now the orange line is this month and the blue is last year in June if you didn't notice, but also observe by the end of the month, June 2014 started to top June 2013. I really do hope that this recent rise continues throughout July and even into August, although I will be extremely busy with everything then. Now more videos will be out for July. I hope to create more montages, even some different ones if I get the right footage, but I'm hoping my friend Robbie still has his server so I can play more Minecraft with friends and do some vids together. For now, I'll upload at a regular pace if I can as July is the last month of the year in which I'm totally free to make videos. I only get two months practically, June and July. The rest is school and band, so I apologize for that inconvenience. So anyway, check out everything on my channel because you may of missed good stuff, and more will be coming soon. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
As for subscribers, June was also pretty good. The month of June had 7 new people subscribe to the channel, but that seems horrible, but honestly to me that's a big boost considering March held the previous record this year with 4. I hope this is the start of something year, as I will aim to top the subscriber count each month. It probably won't happen, but if I can be proven wrong, that'll be great, but I'm still giving it my all. I could of got more for June, but according to YouTube some accounts subbed to me were suspended on June 16 which dropped my sub count a bit. As for 2014, I've gained 27 subs, but lost 17 of them either due to those suspended accounts or legit nor pleasing anybody. I'll go with option 2 unfortunately, but on the bright side I actually have an acceptable video editor called Camtasia. This one actually gives me more options for video cropping, so the most recent video is finally in full screen! Yay!
June 26 also has seen the highest view count of the month with 40 views that day. My view count has been steadily rising up since mid June and hasn't seen less than 10 views a day since June 13, and it is staying at a medium of 40 or 30 views daily. Now over time I hope it improves, but obviously I like seeing this rise in June since 2014 has been rather slow for my channel up until now. Now it is starting to rise, so I hope it continues to rise for July.
Here is a photo of daily views for June 2014 compared to June 2013.
Now the orange line is this month and the blue is last year in June if you didn't notice, but also observe by the end of the month, June 2014 started to top June 2013. I really do hope that this recent rise continues throughout July and even into August, although I will be extremely busy with everything then. Now more videos will be out for July. I hope to create more montages, even some different ones if I get the right footage, but I'm hoping my friend Robbie still has his server so I can play more Minecraft with friends and do some vids together. For now, I'll upload at a regular pace if I can as July is the last month of the year in which I'm totally free to make videos. I only get two months practically, June and July. The rest is school and band, so I apologize for that inconvenience. So anyway, check out everything on my channel because you may of missed good stuff, and more will be coming soon. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Jun 25, 2014
Quick Updates
Hey guys, Cdog here with a quick update post. First of all, with those ideas I had involving friends, that will be put on hold for now. I didn't have money to renew my server this month, so after about a year of service, it has been terminated unfortunately. Now my friend Robbie has a server of his own which is much cheaper than mine, so if we can get on his server, this whole thing won't be a huge deal. I probably won't buy another server until next summer since pretty soon I'll be busy with marching band and school and such, so I wouldn't have much time to go on the server.
In other news, that Minecraft Random Moment video, if you saw it, will not be a one-off thing. It is a new idea I had for a series, in which it makes it convenient to watch funny or random moments from any video I have uploaded or will never upload, in that case with Devil Dave. Yes, it was very random, but I found it amusing to make.
Also, I've been noticing some of my stats increasing lately in views and even subscribers. Now in the past few days, I've gained at least 5 more subscribers, in which is a lot to me quite frankly. I'm still pushing for 100; as soon as I reach that point I'll be very satisfied, even if I don't get anymore. However I compared this June to last June 2013, and oh man does June 2013 blow this month out of the water. Last year in June the view count reached around 580 views around June 24, 2013, and this year by that same date has only reached about 360 views. Obviously I'm improving the content as much as I can and coming up with new ideas, but it is difficult since all last year I was almost always active, but haven't been as active since.
Well that's it for this update post. So I do plan on finally not being lazy tonight and actually get videos out that's been recorded already. That includes some Project Ares, but I may find new ways to edit it, and also what I call a "podcast" I did with mcfarlin, which basically we talk about anything that pops in our minds while we are playing Project Ares. Expect those tonight or tomorrow. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
In other news, that Minecraft Random Moment video, if you saw it, will not be a one-off thing. It is a new idea I had for a series, in which it makes it convenient to watch funny or random moments from any video I have uploaded or will never upload, in that case with Devil Dave. Yes, it was very random, but I found it amusing to make.
Also, I've been noticing some of my stats increasing lately in views and even subscribers. Now in the past few days, I've gained at least 5 more subscribers, in which is a lot to me quite frankly. I'm still pushing for 100; as soon as I reach that point I'll be very satisfied, even if I don't get anymore. However I compared this June to last June 2013, and oh man does June 2013 blow this month out of the water. Last year in June the view count reached around 580 views around June 24, 2013, and this year by that same date has only reached about 360 views. Obviously I'm improving the content as much as I can and coming up with new ideas, but it is difficult since all last year I was almost always active, but haven't been as active since.
Well that's it for this update post. So I do plan on finally not being lazy tonight and actually get videos out that's been recorded already. That includes some Project Ares, but I may find new ways to edit it, and also what I call a "podcast" I did with mcfarlin, which basically we talk about anything that pops in our minds while we are playing Project Ares. Expect those tonight or tomorrow. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Jun 19, 2014
Alright So I Have Ideas...
Hey guys, Cdog here. Remember like a week ago or so I announced what I had planned for June? Well now I'm starting to coming up with the ideas more clearly. First of all, Minecraft Misadventures is kind of troubling to record right now as my friend Robbie won't be available like ever for the rest of the summer from what I've been hearing. He is simply too busy. So I'll probably bring Alex along, but depending on who else I can add, like Elliot, Alexa, or David again, then I can record again. Obviously I want at least two other friends in the video.
Other than that, I'm working on a video project right now that is based off Minecraft's Southeast Rule, as you may of heard. So some friends and I including mcfarlin is gonna help me out with the planning and such. Expect this to actually come out as I do typically say I'll release a big video, but this time I have the free time to do it.
Also, expect tomorrow to be a video about the new Water Dungeons in the newest Minecraft snapshot 12w25a. I played around with it earlier yesterday, so I know how cool they are.
Another thing, I still do have some Project Ares stuff I can upload, but in the future I may come up with variations of PA stuff rather than just me playing it for like 20 minutes or so. For example, montages, perhaps recording a funny moment or whatever. Perhaps I'll start using the "Round" format I used on what used to be the Project Ares PVP channel I was in with mcfarlin. Basically each episode is a "round" in which I only play one round. It can take a few minutes, or even up to 20 or even 2 parters or whatever, but this is all stuff I'll think of in the future. I know I usually don't keep promises, but expect one of the new ideas to be uploaded next week.
So that's all for now of my ideas. I hope this should help with the view count a bit as I am pretty lackluster on views lately which I blame partly on my inactivity and perhaps lack of original ideas. This is my attempt at originality. However I did some research and find this month so for up to June 17 I've been almost on par with June 2013's views. At around June 17, 2013, I had 254 views. Now around June 17, 2014, I have 227 views. I'm pretty happy to see I'm pretty close with last year's June views, which last June got viewed 714 times. So I hope this may be a sign my view count could be rising back as it has been dipping down recently. So expect all these videos sometime within the month. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Other than that, I'm working on a video project right now that is based off Minecraft's Southeast Rule, as you may of heard. So some friends and I including mcfarlin is gonna help me out with the planning and such. Expect this to actually come out as I do typically say I'll release a big video, but this time I have the free time to do it.
Also, expect tomorrow to be a video about the new Water Dungeons in the newest Minecraft snapshot 12w25a. I played around with it earlier yesterday, so I know how cool they are.
Another thing, I still do have some Project Ares stuff I can upload, but in the future I may come up with variations of PA stuff rather than just me playing it for like 20 minutes or so. For example, montages, perhaps recording a funny moment or whatever. Perhaps I'll start using the "Round" format I used on what used to be the Project Ares PVP channel I was in with mcfarlin. Basically each episode is a "round" in which I only play one round. It can take a few minutes, or even up to 20 or even 2 parters or whatever, but this is all stuff I'll think of in the future. I know I usually don't keep promises, but expect one of the new ideas to be uploaded next week.
So that's all for now of my ideas. I hope this should help with the view count a bit as I am pretty lackluster on views lately which I blame partly on my inactivity and perhaps lack of original ideas. This is my attempt at originality. However I did some research and find this month so for up to June 17 I've been almost on par with June 2013's views. At around June 17, 2013, I had 254 views. Now around June 17, 2014, I have 227 views. I'm pretty happy to see I'm pretty close with last year's June views, which last June got viewed 714 times. So I hope this may be a sign my view count could be rising back as it has been dipping down recently. So expect all these videos sometime within the month. Until then, goodbye!
~Cdog
Jun 7, 2014
So What's Planned for June?
Hey guys Cdog here. So it is June 7, or almost June 8 by the time I'm typing this. If you noticed the videos on my channel than you may of realized I brought back the Minecraft Misadventures series. I plan on doing more, but the most recent Episode 7 was the last of that recording session and we can't record more until about Monday. Starting then we will mix things up from a just plain survival to an actual challenge to do. You'll find out in Episode 8. Other than that, I also uploaded my first update video since January, but expect there to be more to keep you updated. So you guys will have this blog and the update videos on my channel to look for news pertaining to me. Other than that, I'm trying to plan out some other stuff to do in June. I had an idea concerning about Minecraft's Southeast Rule, but that's still within the works of idea creating. Other than that, I have no other stuff planned for June, but as time goes on I'll find new ideas. I do have all the time in the world in June and almost all of July before band camp starts the last week of July, so I will be churning out videos until then. Once band camp starts however, I will have no time for anything practically. And with sophomore year coming up around that time, I need to prepare and once sophomore year starts, I will be super busy as I will be working harder to achieve great things. So in recap (or for TL;DR):
-More Minecraft Misadventures
-Update Videos
-Southeast Rule of Minecraft
I'll come up with more ideas as time goes on, but until then goodbye!
~Cdog
-More Minecraft Misadventures
-Update Videos
-Southeast Rule of Minecraft
I'll come up with more ideas as time goes on, but until then goodbye!
~Cdog
May 27, 2014
A New Writing: Push and Pull
Hey guys Cdog here with another piece of literature. This one is called Push and Pull, and the basic premise of it is the constant struggle I have between the "web" I caught in with the girl I like, Maura, and the girl who likes me, Alexa. Now let me get this straight, I felt compelled to write this since I just got back from Kennywood literally half and hour ago when I'm writing this, and I felt like I was in the madhouse. Alexa is creepily attached to me, while I'm attracted to Maura, and the ironic thing is, they are both best friends. Can you imagine that situation? You are trying to get to know a girl you like, while at the same time have her friend who likes you try her very best with you, and not trying to make her cry. This explains my struggle. Alexa and her family make me feel like I'm in the madhouse, while being with Maura completes me and makes me feel happy. At the same time, someone else pulls her away. So this is the conflict: I'm trying to know Maura, while someone is pulling her away, while at the same time, I'm being pulled away by Alexa. So yes, push and pull. Just read it; it may not be the best, it may sound like I'm crazy, because I am. All due respect to Alexa if she is reading this. I will NOT put this on YouTube though. Goodbye.
~Cdog (sorry for sounding crazy, I literally am!)
~Cdog (sorry for sounding crazy, I literally am!)
May 25, 2014
A New Writing: Nighttime
Hey guys, Cdog here. Today I got around to writing a new piece that I call Nighttime. Essentially what this short story tells is of my experiences walking down my neighborhood at night. The past couple nights I started to take walks around my neighborhood around midnight or so. It stared midnight Saturday morning whenever I got angry playing Project Ares, so I decided to clear my mind taking a walk around my neighborhood. I did it later that night, and now it is just routine. Last night's walk was powerful, and it shaped the way this story goes. I was upset last night after the band banquet I just went to, whenever I felt I took a step backwards towards where I wanted to be with Maura that night. If you read it you may also notice the motif of a certain bright star in the sky. Whenever I looked above to see all the starts last night, I could always see this one star that catches my attention. It was bright and blue, and perhaps it was Sirius but I'm not sure. That one star reminded me of Maura. The cloudy skies also represent my first night walk. Just read it yourself for the magic. I will get around to posting this on YouTube as well, so get ready for that. Until then, goodbye!
Check out the new writing in the Writings page!
~Cdog
Check out the new writing in the Writings page!
~Cdog
May 17, 2014
This Week...
Hey guys Cdog here. In this post, I have a bit of a lowish tone, for I've been feeling upset the past few days. That is why you haven't been seeing much Outlast or what I wanted to do so far this weekend. This whole thing is about my situation with the girl I like, which you know from my writings as Maura. The thing is, recently I've been having to learn how tough love can get. Before I didn't see it as a thing in which is breaking, but honestly I have felt a bit broken from what's been happening. There is just one thing I need to do: wait. We're both in marching band, and next year I'm entering my 2nd year of band whenever I'm going to be a sophomore next year, as freshman year ends on Friday May 23. She's going to be a junior. It really is tough, so because of this I probably won't get much videos on the channel since this has started to take effect on me. Let's just hope by summer's end we really get to know each other. That is what I wanted this week; this week I started to text her since I finally got her number but it hasn't been pleasing the past few days. I probably won't even exit through my usual outro, but if you are also interested I wrote a poem last week called Visions. I wrote this after finishing Outlast Whistleblower last Saturday night, and it reveals what I sometimes think in my head and also what I desire most with Maura. I have been feeling pretty upset with this, so I guess once it gets better, I can possibly write more on it. You can find the poem in the writings page. Goodbye.
~Cdog
~Cdog
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